A leap of faith................................

when someone says "I NEARLY SHIT MY PANTS" and u answer I UNDERSTAND , you are usually just trying to imagine what it actually means but you never have been in one actually, similarly when someone says " I TOOK A LEAP OF FAITH" its the same situation , and in many more cases like this it is usually the same because we all try to imagine what that the situation was like because we cannot actually FATHOM the depth in the meaning of what he just said. i say this because i too was among those who used the TAGLINE " I CAN IMAGINE / UNDERSTAND" quite liberally and leniently.........

 but time comes and you some to understand that the terms you sometimes use are not as appropriate as they were, and the moment of truth for me happened 2 days back, everyone has one and this was mine.

the scene of that intense moment of realization was actually quite a lenient one, i was in Himachal on a trip and we surprisingly had a day off here (ive worked 5 of the first 7 weekends) so i took it in its stride and we made a plan of actually exploring the place !!!

so the plan was set and we went to a place called KHAJJIAR , awesome valley set amongst pine forests and all that , straight out of the sets of a romantic movie types,  so there was this oppurtunity for PARAGLIDING, the cost a little too high but after the initial hesitation , later i said FUCK I EARN SO STOP BEING A MISER and so two of us Mayanck singh

and me decided to go ahead and do it. so the stage was set, a adventure and an adventure freak mixing , a perfect setting for enjoyment, so made out way around 20 mins by car and 30 mins on foot to the adjacent hilltop and that was it !!!!

that was the take off area if i can call it that , so there was this steep slope that ended in a near vertical cliff and i was i can do it , so now the twist "HERE COMES THE FOG" and wait till it clears , took about an hour or so , was getting impatient , and then it cleared and THAT WAS MY MOMENT OF TRUTH RIGHT THERE, the thump of my heart was huge , the instructor cum pilot said , just run and run and you will be lifted off the ground, and on the top of the grassy patch was me hooked to the glider, and that was the MOMENT , yes that was it !!!
that was the time when "THE MOMENT OF TRUTH"
,"SHITTING MY PANTS","NEARLY PEED MY PANTS" and all that sort of phrases i had used without acknowledging their depth of meaning came in a HUGE FLOOD as i rushed down that slope towards a vertical drop, and the moment before i just took off was the scariest i guess i must have felt in my entire life!!!!!!

but i took off, and am alive to tell the tale , a lot more wiser and a lot more optimistic about LIVING THE MOMENT , a great experience in all. and i also know what BALLS OF STEEL means now , and shall hence forth use such phrases judiciously, also some pics that survived to tell the tale !!!!
P.S go for paragliding if u ever get a chance, its the closest many of u will get to flying and the lady who took of before me was over 65 years old so if her then why not you !!!!!!

experiences !!!!!

the past week has been a wonderful one for me , rather an interesting one if i could say so , things are going fine but imagine you meet someone u know after 7 long years and then as soon as u meet u become a partner in crime with that person, though the crime is just so that things can be set right but still u partner that person just as a spur of the moment activity, trust me it was one hell of an experience..........(sorry im bound to keep the details a secret)
and now comes the wonderful part , ive got back to reading and its been a while i had been reading but i finished 3 books in 3 days flat , not very bulky though but still three decently sized books finished , and then i realized ive done many things till now and have been exploring things too but more so there are some components of life ive left out , maybe not willingly but yes they had been left out but it was bout time i got back to attending to them as i could not leave them to be forever.
Ten years in boarding school can wreak havoc in ur life and thats what happened to me, other things are fine and got better with time but the one sphere that really falls apart in boarding school is the part where u learn to interact with the opposite sex, and altough it was  co-educational school things were no different from a boys school, and i got the basics all wrong there itself, and then came another time of havoc ""GOING TO A BOYS SCHOOL"" that was the icing on the cake if u can say that in matters of getting things wrong.

now comes the sad part , i went to a government college where the gender ratio is the worst it could be in the entire world and even worse went to a department in which there was 1 girl in a department of 245 people, now do u get the picture, things have actually been going from bad to worst and if there is another word that would do just fine in that direction, and now am stuck in an core engineering firm where all we have to satisfy ourselves and be content with is machinery that looks like someone took a BHADAKUTI (a game played by children in the Himalayas) and made things ultra large, to contemplate, where a screw and nut combination is about as heavy as 30 kg, now do u get the picture , where things are talked about in meters and tons rather than centimeters and kgs , and thats all i have to call for all day , and you know the large machines that we look at with awe when they are being transported, well i work in a factory that makes them, especially hydro components that are the biggest in India ,for example the heaviest coupling shaft (almost the same as a axle on a vehicle) that we manufactured was just 65 tons, so the picture is quite clear to u all, but wait what am i trying to get across, right ????????

now on the point , its as simple s it gets , im in Delhi for the last 45 days and i haven't got a taste of the ""DELHI LIFE"" that everyone who comes to Delhi so talks bout , so a longing to break free , the work ends at 5 but i have a life beyond that and what do i do then, no idea i guess because most of the people who i work with have no idea too, and its just great that these people are from Delhi and they have no fun, hell i even tried having fun on my own but im the stranger here so where do i go , i get a few references and i drop in to that place and have fun but u need people with u can have fun with and thats the part where things are so lacking, now i have said something about the socializing thing before , ive tried to better myself and have got rid of most of the inadequacies that plagued me for the better part of my life till now, so what the FUCK?????

come on lets get out and have some fun , and to the few people who do read my small WORTHLESS blog drop in ur suggestions about what i should do because im tired of asking the same questions to the same people everyday and if u r coming over lets catch up sometime, it would be a very welcome change to the company i usually have
catch all of u later and LETS HAVE SOME FUN!!!!!!!!